Saturday, August 22, 2009.
she vacated the building at 7:25 AM
I haven't been doing much in projects this year, passive and not intiating, not even doing my own job well sometimes.
Actually, I really seriously haven't been doing anything at all, all the subjects, I really can't stand myself, I think I am changing to become a different person, one who doesn't care about work anymore, one who only thinks about play. I seriously don't know what is happening to me?
Can someone tell me?
Ever since I am in this class, I have changed, at least I feel that I have.
Maybe that's the reason why everyone who have worked with me are avoiding me, refusing to do projects with me.
I am such a lousy person, bad in communication. NO, actually i do not have any communication skills at all.
People are dao-ing me, and treating me like air, like I don't even exist. I should really just go and jump down a building or try getting killed by a car, I don't think even anyone cares if I die.
Then why am I even living on this Earth, breathing in oxygen? I am just wasting oxygen since I am so useless, not contributing.
I really don't know what I should do.. This world is forever so competitive, there will forever be no true friends beside me. Those people that I once believed in, are already slowly drifting away. Why must the world be such a competitive place? I don't even know who to call a friend. Friends are supposed to stand by each other, and help each other out. I now sort of believe 1 person who once told me that there are no friends in this world.
I have to use my ability to show them that I can do it.
I can. I really can. I must really manage my time already. This isn't the real me that I once knew.
Sorry all, ( I bet no one is even reading this post) this is just venting all frustrations and trying to do some reflections
SORRY ALL, who have worked with me this year, I am one that is not efficient, neither am I clever nor good at communicating and working with others. Now I wonder, why am I even born in the first place to suffer from all these things due to my stupidity? I am dumb and stupid.Even I myself cannot tolerate my stupidity anymore.
I am really sorry, I know it's no use saying these now. Because it's too late and nobody cares about me anymore. Perhaps I am really an outcast who cannot fit into this complicated society at all. Hmm, even when I asked them for reasons, all they give are excuses. I shall get this clear into my mind that people only look at abilities, not relationships. Relationships are all for nothing, they won't get you a job, neither will they guarantee you a good grade, it's your ability that count.
Sunday, June 21, 2009.
she vacated the building at 9:11 AM
Alot alot of things happened in this year, wondering about why live etc etc.
I guess not a single one outside knows how people feels deep down inside. It's been really tiring caring about others. When they just throw random remarks like that.
It's been tiring looking at how friends can get along so well, and next moment it's gone. It has gone somewhere else to a faraway place...
Admitting that it's alright is often such a tiring and difficult job.
Then why live? I really don't understand.
Sometimes, making a happy face in front of everyone when they said/did something bad is so hard.
I am just trying to vent my anger at something. So treat this post as nothing.
I just can't control myself.
I am really sorry.
I am sorry.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009.
she vacated the building at 6:38 AM
Puzzled, I recently feel that I am not understanding the people around me already...
Like getting further and further to some people, and nearer and nearer to other people.
This feels weird, like every year there will be new things and stuff.
Nevermind. Although i have no idea these people are thinking, but I suddenly feel distant to the people I once knew.
always smile to the challenges
Tuesday, May 26, 2009.
she vacated the building at 8:16 AM
This is my first post in the year, I know it's very late but in any case, I suddenly realise that there's no end in everything. Be it studying etc..
Because after you have all the tests, you have to learn and absorb new things to prepare for the next test. Other than that, there's also other things like NYAA, CCA, SMP, etc. So it's like, My June hols are totally gone! ): But it will definitely be a very enriching and busy month, so cheer up GL!
Always remember to smile at the challenges
Saturday, December 13, 2008.
she vacated the building at 6:43 AM
so irritating..
my stupid laptop crashed on me.
my stupid laptop needs repairing.
my stupid laptop has a problem.
my stupid msn can't work properly.
my stupid msn can't be used now.
my stupid msn is just so irritating.
I am very very very very frustrated. ARGHHHH....
hope all these would be solved ASAP.
Saturday, December 06, 2008.
she vacated the building at 7:07 AM
This are the cute photos of my niece! Yay! Ok.
sorry that i made a mistake. my tagboard has nothing wrong.IT'S PERFECTLY FINE. Good.
Secondly, I am dying soon. (Nah, just kidding!)
Thirdly, I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY TO JAPAN OR EUROPE!
AND i GUESS very few people know that i am in an attempt to revive my once dead blog.
Okay, 25 days to school reopen and all is hectic again.
I hope my blog won't be conquered once again.
Just went looking at blogs and I just realise how time flies and everyone turns out to be very different after all. Like, imagine the person who's once ur close friend(not referring to Jasmine), turning out to be a totally different person after 2 years, woah! Unbelievable.
Grace Gan's birthday is coming soon and I have lots to do. uploading photos of her soon. it's a sunday! Can't wait for the day to arrive! :)) Getting all excited and hyper..
K. I need to relax abit.
Nites, people.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008.
she vacated the building at 12:38 AM
sorry the tagboard is alittle weird as this is another new blogskin that I decided to use. Will probably have another tagboard if possible asap. so haha construction in progress. or should I say revival?
